The stages of grief, I'm totally going through them. Down to 120 pounds with that hollowed out, gut feeling. That's emotional distress and taking it out at the gym for ya. Acceptance, it's where I'm at. I was in love with a facade. I was shocked, angry, felt guilty, wanted to fix it, now I've accepted it. Time for healing. Who knows for how long... but I will get through it, and be more beautiful than I have ever been before. It's been hard, hardest thing of my life. I have good days where I feel free, then there are bad ones where I cry hard in length and want to curl up in a ball. The learning process has already started. 26 years old I am... Got married, two terrific children, homes, careers, the so much in between, now divorce... that's a lot. Time for a few cleansing breaths. I have to be cautious, it's tempting and easier than I thought to fill your void, only human nature, but I won't. I will do it right. For myself, for my children. I am strong. You won't break me, you never have or will. I am sorry for your loss, truly am... but thank you for setting me free.
Some people may wonder why I am so open, so telling of my feelings and putting it all out there. This is me, this is my life. Please learn from it, and let me be a light.
The Lord has miraculous things ahead for me and I'm smiling just thinking about them. You will get me through this. I pray for Your joy to fill my heart, I need it. I am so excited for what's to come...
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Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself at the thought of someone who would dance to the day, and so, he walked faster to catch up.As he got closer, he noticed that the figure was that of a young man, and that what he was doing was not dancing at all. The young man was reaching down to the shore, picking up small objects, and throwing them into the ocean.He came closer still and called out "Good morning! May I ask what it is that you are doing?"The young man paused, looked up, and replied "Throwing starfish into the ocean.""I must ask, then, why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?" asked the somewhat startled wise man.To this, the young man replied, "The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll die."Upon hearing this, the wise man commented, "But, young man, do you not realize that there are miles and miles of beach and there are starfish all along every mile? You can't possibly make a difference!"At this, the young man bent down, picked up yet another starfish, and threw it into the ocean. As it met the water, he said, "It made a difference for that one."
Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself at the thought of someone who would dance to the day, and so, he walked faster to catch up.As he got closer, he noticed that the figure was that of a young man, and that what he was doing was not dancing at all. The young man was reaching down to the shore, picking up small objects, and throwing them into the ocean.He came closer still and called out "Good morning! May I ask what it is that you are doing?"The young man paused, looked up, and replied "Throwing starfish into the ocean.""I must ask, then, why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?" asked the somewhat startled wise man.To this, the young man replied, "The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll die."Upon hearing this, the wise man commented, "But, young man, do you not realize that there are miles and miles of beach and there are starfish all along every mile? You can't possibly make a difference!"At this, the young man bent down, picked up yet another starfish, and threw it into the ocean. As it met the water, he said, "It made a difference for that one."
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